A Snow Cone and A Year

Our favorite Snow Cone stand opened during spring break. Normally we would be the first ones in line, BUT my husband decided to give up desserts for Lent. So instead we were going to be the first ones in line the day after Easter.

Have you ever heard the term, When the cat's away the mice will play? Well Marcus is the cat, which he will hate, and Katie and I are the mice, which I think is gross.

What I am trying to say is that Katie and I totally cheated on Marcus and got a snow cone today!

Katie got a pee wee Cherry.
The snow cone lady suggested a lid and a straw and I think she is a genius!

I got a strawberry shortcake.

My usual is a peachy melon with gummy bears, but I got a temporary crown on Monday and I don't want it to stick to a bear and fall out. I get the permanent one in 5 weeks.
I could have bought the Queen of England's crown for what I spent on my tooth crown.

On another, much sadder note, did you watch The Duggar's last night?

It was about them losing their daughter at 18 weeks pregnant. They went to the gender reveal sonogram and there wasn't a heart beat. Devastating! I LOVED that immediately they prayed, and thanked God for her life, and put their trust in Him. That's really all you can do in a situation like that.

Marcus and I always joke that the only things we have in common are Jesus, Mexican food and Katie. We have a great marriage, but NOTHING in common. BUT there are some shows we like to watch together and the Duggar's is one of them. Marcus decided when he saw the preview for this show, he didn't want to watch it. It hit too close to home.

One year ago today, I miscarried our baby. I was supposed to have a D&C the next day, but it happened on it's own. I watched the show late last night and sobbed and snotted all over myself. I am sure Marcus was glad he missed out on that!

We don't feel sorry for ourselves and we don't feel like victims.
The only reason I talk about my miscarriage is to TRY to give comfort to others. I know it helped me to talk to people in the same boat.
The 2 things that give me tremendous peace are:

1. God has a plan for my life ( and yours) . He loves me (and you) more than I can imagine.

"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

2. We are just passing through this Earth for a split second compared to eternity. I will see that baby again in Heaven and spend forever with Him. And he ( I think it was a he, but I don't know for sure. I just don't want to call him "it") is with Jesus and having a perfectly awesome time right now!

The big ugly things in life make you appreciate the little things in life... Like snow cones!


ginacate said...

I sobbed and snotted all over myself too. You were not alone :(

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Staci said...

That's how I was during The Help. I wasn't familiar with the story and the scene with the rosebushes just did me in. We had 3 losses before Sofia was born. As you can imagine my pregnancy with her (and Olivia) was completely terrifying. I look at them and I know how blessed I am and they were waiting for me all along. Just like I was waiting for them. But seeing scenes like that do hit very close to home.
Big fat hugs and big ole fountain coke with a pink straw are being subliminally sent through this computer screen!!

bella said...

I sobbed through that show also and it has been 27 years since I had a miscarriage. You just never forget losing a baby.

Erin K said...

Yea for the little things! And double yea for lids and straws! It's hard to believe it's been a whole year. And don't forget chocolate. Chocolate helps a lot too.

Mallorie said...

I watched as well. My hubby originally didn't want to but ended up watching with me. I just love the Duggars and how they handled that terrible situation. Such grace and trust in the Lord. I am so sorry for you loss but you are right, he is totally having so much fun with Jesus right now!!! I love that you think that he is a he ;-) Mommy inutituion!

Nicole said...

What a GREAT post!

Cher said...

I too lost a baby & had a D&C about a year and a half ago. It hurts sometimes, because sometimes you feel like you are the only one that remebers your baby or the pain that you felt/feel. Keep talking about it. It helps to know others are feeling the same as you and that they have hope.

Brooklynn said...

Wow. That's amazing. I still cry and get sad about my loss too, I thank God for this baby and pregnancy. I, too, know that I will see "him" in heaven one day. (Dave and I thought it was a boy too). :)

Anonymous said...

Just curious if your favorite snowcone stand is the Bedford Snowball? I know they have the peewee size since I often get 2 of those when I go to try 2 different flavors. I noticed it was open but haven't been yet this season. I'm thinking maybe tomorrow???

Anonymous said...

Long time reader, but I think this is my first comment. Thank you for this post. It is easy to feel alone sometimes. I miscarried our first child last month and the pain is still very fresh. I couldn't watch the Duggars for that reason. Still, I know and believe that the things you said are true. Our baby (a girl, I'm certain :)) is with the Lord where there is no pain or sorrow.